Sunday, Apr. 13, 2003

Unwell...

It was a terribly long day, and I was going through the day filled with mixed emotions. Slept late last night due to my sinus.

Met up with Ina in the morning for breakfast at Westmall. I would have preferred if I could meet her for lunch instead, but she had a lot of work appointments set up for the rest of the day, including lunch, so we could only spend time together around an hour plus. Wasn't feeling very well yesterday night cuz of my sinus, so was feeling cranky and unwell when I met her.

Was supposed to meet her at 10.15am, but in the end I had to wait again till she came around a few minutes after 11am. I already took breakfast at home, cuz my father bought roti prata, but I accompanied her for breakfast at Burger King. Well, the purpose of meeting was actually cuz I really wanted to spend at least some time with her...

So there we were sitting at Burger King. I poured out a lot of things to her. I just hope she understands. I just needed the assurance and release. I need some time to focus on getting a job, earning money and all. Thanks Dear...

She left for her appointment around 12 noon, so I went home, got some rest and lunch and then went out again around 2 odd to Jurong Entertainment Centre where Kok Yong, Liz, Liping and Naz were already there having their lunch. Nat was unable to come as she had work. We then proceeded to Kok Yong's house to start our project marathon. When I met them, I don't know why, I was still very disturnbed and felt a bit sick...but had to pull up my lock socks cuz of the impending long day ahead.

Took turns going through our parts, completing some stuff, collating the reporting together, the whole time, one of us would be typing the keyboard computer furiously while the rest of us would be seated on Kok Yong's bedroom floor trying to brainstorm and add some more stuff to the PR report. It was quite stressful I tell ya, but this is one of our last projects together, so we want to get it over and done with.

But seriously, I'm gonna miss this. They've been really great friends and doing projects with them have also been really fun. We all get along very well and our ideas always flow together nicely. And our discussions are not all serious, we would always have fun, laughing our fat asses off! But we would be graduating soon and unfortunately life has to move on...

We had 2 large Canadian pizzas by delivery for dinner, thanks to Kok Yong and his mother. Left his house around 5 minutes after 11pm, but still the project is incomplete. I volunteered to format and compile the report since I would be free tomorrow...and the rest of them would be submitting their collaterals. I just hope that our emails won't be jammed up with this onslaught of emails and large file attachments.

Okay, need to sleep now, tomorrow, I'm predicting that I'll be spending majority of my time in front of my computer...

posted at 12:57 a.m.

Saturday, Apr. 12, 2003

Departure...

Luckily, I was able to take a break from the project today.

Although I did a bit of the research findings and highlights, I managed to finish everything by 7pm and emailed the rest. Only one part I didn't get to finish, but that's cuz Nazrana emailed me that part late.

Went for my Friday prayers in the afternoon. It was raining then. Called her for awhile cuz I kinda missed her. Only managed to meet her 3 days ago. But she was busy with work. So I called Jason in the afternoon to chat with him for awhile. But bro, didn't expect you to tell her anything man. But anyway, due to Jason's prompting, her phonecall did perk me up, though at that time I was rushing my parts for the project on my computer.

Talked to her again later at night before Survivor. Tomorrow I'll be meeting Ina for breakfast cuz I have to do project the whole afternoon (and maybe at night) at Kok Yong's house with the SIM gang. Sigh...

Just now, on Survivor, Deena was voted out. I was kinda rooting for her, but like I said a few weeks ago, her time was coming and I already know the Final 4 for Survivor: The Amazon, thanks to credible internet spoilers. So her departure was expected. But then again, I admire her gameplay, but she got too arrogant somewhat, and gave Final 3 promises to too many people, hence making her untrustworthy.

Plus she was campaigning to boot off Alex just because he's a physical threat, even though he is in her alliance of 5, Deena-Jenna-Heidi-Rob-Alex. Of course they would be pissed. And she was turning into another Roger, abrasive and teling people what to do. So it's understandable the prom queens or twigs and sticks aka Heidi and Jenna would feel that she's backstabbing them.

And did I mention that Heidi was bitten on her knee by a tarantula? Haha, deserves her right. I can't stand her. So now, she has a sore or bump as big as one of her breasts on her knee. I prefer Jenna to her. But Christy, mmmm...it's very inspring to watch her play this game.

And for immunity challenge, they had their traditional gross food challenge, and low and behold, Matthew won. Bravo! I'm definitely rooting for him. I he had not won, he would have been voted out. He's just misunderstood and I pity him, for being the stooge that Rob is making him out to be! You should check out Matthew's bio resume...very very impressive!

Next week, I predict that either Alex or Rob will be out! I hope it's the former...

I had a lot of things going through my mind just now. Insecurities, questions, thoughts...I just wanted to talk to her, or at least confide in somebody. So chatted with Jason on the phone till 3am just now. Sigh...

And now I'm having a freaking terrible flu, my usual sinus attack. I need to get me some sleep, but I can't really sleep with this running nose...

posted at 4:03 a.m.

Friday, Apr. 11, 2003

Project

Okay, it was another day full of project for me.

Went over to Kok Yong's house to continue with the essay a bit. Felt a bit lazy and had some stuff to settle at home so even though I was supposed to be there 1 to 2 odd, I only reached there around 3 plus. We both worked on a bit of the essay, until our brains became pretty tired and we gave up. So we only managed to finish 3/4 of it.

Then together, we left his house and went to Dhoby Ghaut again. Went to PS first to look at the stuff there, before going over to Long John Silver's at the same building opposite Dhoby Ghaut MRT, where we held our Monday's meeting. We were the earliest, Naz reached a few minutes after us. While Liz, Nat and Liping came much later.

Though all of us were quite stressed out with the project, it was another productive meeting, as we managed to finish by 10.30pm and we agreed on delegating and splitting up the parts and emailing each other by tomorrow 7pm. This time around, Kok Yong is completing the essay on his own and I chose to do the Research highlights and findings on my own, so I've got the whole of tomorrow to do that...and we'll be collating everything and meeting at Kok Yong's house this Saturday to finish the project.

While the rest took train, Nat drove and gave me and Kok Yong a ride to Clementi MRT. Reached home just now, feeling once again freaking tired.

But managed to watch American Idol 2 just now (well, once again, my niece recorded it for me). This time around, the bottom three is Kimberley Locke, Kimberley Caldwell and Rickey Smith. I thought Kimberley Locke doesn't deserve to be in the bottom three. She performed very well. I thought out of them it would be Kimberley Caldwell's turn to pack her bags. But unfortunately Rickey Smith had to go.

In my opinion, he was one of the better performers for this episode, so I don't think it was him time to go yet. It should have been Kimberley C or Carmen. But oh well, he's never gonna win, nor am I rooting for him, so I guess...doesn't really matterlah.

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Ok, due to Jason's request, here's a picture of Carmen Rasmusen.

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I'll give her maybe 2 more weeks before she should be kicked out. She's very cute, very commercial and only 18, but I can't stand her singing voice. She sounds like a lamb, ba-ba-ing her way in the competition. She's just candy-eye for us, as for now...

posted at 1:50 a.m.

Thursday, Apr. 10, 2003

Dumb Move!

Woke up late today, as usual. Took lunch before going to Westmall and walking around there looking at some computer stuff with Kok Yong.

He then came over to my house in the afternoon to continue with the damn project. Had a few problems doing the bar graphs for our research findings and highlights, so we were struggling with that on my comp. Plus my comp keeps hanging cuz of the huge documents Nazrana sent me regarding her previous campaign.

We needed that as reference but we didn't manage to finish it just now cuz my comp was giving problems and Kok Yong wanted to go home for dinner. In the end we split up the work and tomorrow, I'm going over to his house again...

Also watched the debut episode of MTV's Clone High USA downloaded from Kazaa. This is the subject matter for our PR project. The show is quite funny actually, but the animation is the typical ugly MTV-style and the storylines are a bit crappy, at least to me.

Tonight was Smallville's first season finale. Damn good. But Smallville fans need not fret, cuz Ch 5 is resuming with its Season 2 premiere in 2 wks time...can't wait. And did I mention that Buffy The Vampire Slayer will be back next week. But alas, it's a bloody late timeslot, 12 midnight Wednesday. This is the fucking stupidest move made Ch 5 so far. What the fuck! Why so late?

I thought they usually show Buffy on Tuesdays at 10pm. Why this move!? I'm so pissed. All because they're showing too much of these damn reality shows and now they have to push Buffy to midnight? I mean I'm very fine with Survivor, Amazing Race, American Idol and to a certain extent Fear Factor, but now they are showing every other Goddamn reality show from The Bachelor to Meet My Folks. All of them are pretty sucky I tell you!

And why the hell are they putting Birds of Prey, a show that has already been axed in the US, an hour earlier than the more popular Buffy! Doesn't make sense!!

Mediacrap Ch 5! I demand you put Buffy back to its deserved Tues 10pm slot! And bring Gilmore Girls from Sunday 6pm back to Tuesday! I'm not a huge fan of the show, but I admit, the show's quite good! Who are these dumbasses calling themselves programme schedulers in Mediacrap! Sickening!

posted at 2:15 a.m.

Wednesday, Apr. 09, 2003

Interview

Woke up early in the morning to go for my job interview at NUS. Took direct bus, 188 there. Reached there pretty early and I went to NUS Enterprise, the venue of the interview, and was interviewed by Lawrence, 5 mins earlier than the stipulated time.

He seems like a nice guy and nice boss. I actually applied for Management Support Officer for the Office of Health & Wellness, but according to him, I didn't get through that and they have found someone else already, so my resume was passed over to the human resource dept and then to him. So now, I'm automatically applying for NUS Enterprise, a 2-yr old department.

Went through the normal procedure. I'm really keen on getting the job, and he wants someone new, someone willing to learn. But I'm not sure what are my chances for getting a second interview, maybe 50/50. Just have to wait and see.

The interview ended 15 mins later. Quite short. So is that good or bad? Immediately called Ina after that to wake her up. Supposed to meet her at IMM at 10.30pm. She didn't pick my call. Finally her sister answered and told me she was still sleeping.

By that time, I was already at IMM at 10 am, so had to wait and hang around doing nothing, in my smart office attire, waiting for her to come down. If not for my research materials that I had to read through and my MD of Survivor seasons 1 to 6 theme songs and other tv themes, I would be bored to death.

She finally reached around Jurong East MRT at 11.30pm, where I picked her up and from there, we went back to IMM to walk around for awhile and sent her photos for development, and then back to Jurong East central to take our lunch. Affordable food at the coffee shop. I'm broke.

Then we went to Jurong Entertainment Centre to hang around at McDonald's for awhile, before we went out separate ways. She had some appointments with her ex-colleagues while I had to go over to Kok Yong's house to do our parts for the project.

Kok Yong and me are in charge of the research parts and the essay for our project. So I was there at his house from 3pm till 6 plus.

Now, I'm pretty exhausted by today's events. Can barely keep eyes opened. My brain can't take it anymore. Need to get some rest now, this week I'll be damn busy with this PR project...

posted at 1:06 a.m.

Tuesday, Apr. 08, 2003

Productive

Got a call from a guy named Lawrence from NUS around mid-afternoon. He asked me to come down for an interview for the Management Support Officer position that I applied for a couple weeks ago tomorrow. Initially he told me to come down in the afternoon at 4pm, but he called again to reschedule my interview to 9am in the morning. That's so early, but I told him that I would be available.

I was quite surprised to get the call actually. Had been very busy in the morning discussing with Kok Yong over the phone our parts for the PR project, so I didn't see it coming. After the call, I informed Kok Yong about my interview and told him, that he might be getting a phonecall too since he also applied for the same position. We'll just have to see. Lawrence also emailed me abt the details of the interview. He's the manager actually...

Met up with him around 4.45pm and we headed to Funan centre to check out some computer stuff and games, before walking back all the way to Dhoby Ghaut MRT station to meet the rest for project discussion. Everyone was there except for Nat. Discussed at Long John Silver's in the building opposite the MRT station. I have no idea what the building's name is though.

Discussion was pretty good. There were not much distractions (as in nearby shopping malls for the girls), so it was pretty productive. All of us had dinner there, and after waiting for a couple people who were late, we finally started discussion proper around 8 and ended at 10pm. We were all quite focused just now, considering that we have exactly one more week left to the deadline.

But I foresee myself being very busy for this whole week...whatever, we all wanna get this final project over and done with. Since Liping is working at NUS, I did ask her for tips for the interview. Same goes for the rest.

Went home and talked to Ina for awhile. Like the SIM gang, she also gave me tips on what to wear and do during the interview and taught me how to be mentally prepared. I just hope that I won't fuck up in the interview later. Need a job right now. NUS is a stat board, so this is considered like a first proper job interview for me. Yes, the job market is that bad...

Just now, Ch 5 finally aired the Season 9 premiere of Friends. I have watched the first 17 episodes on Kazaa already, and have already deleted them off my computer. But re-watching this premiere episode still made me laugh hysterically. Chandler is damn hilarious and Phoebe is still my fav and the best out of the 6. Anyone wanna konw what's gonna happen this season. I can give you guys spoilers for each character here, if you want...

Just finished chatting with Lauren on ICQ. Been awhile since I talked to her online. Miss you guys, babe. Chatted with her about mostly everything from SARS to my newly developed relationship. Lauren and Mona is still hyped about it over there apparently. And while I was chatting with Lauren, Mona was dancing in the room, with herself (or was it with a bolster?). Sigh, so shiok to have an apartment of your own with your friends, even temporarily.

Good luck to all your assignments girls...and Mona, do think about it...the "E" person...hehe

posted at 1:35 a.m.

Monday, Apr. 07, 2003

If You're Not The One

Today, Sunday, was my rest day as usual...

Did the usual vacuuming of my house. Whole family was resting today, so didn't do much stuff, family-wise. Was intending to send out my resumes, but got lazy and slacked a bit. Also supposed to start reading a bit for tomorrow's project meeting, but just had no mood.

Today, she had a family camp cum picnic at East Coast Park. Invited me as well, but I declined, maybe next time...not ready yet. Plus I need my rest after a whirlwind week.

Will only be meeting her this Tuesday, too busy with projects and all. Need to concentrate with the SIM gang on the PR campaign, if not we'll be royally screwed. Plus we have a whole week of school break due to SARS, so the more we should use this time to do it...just wishing I have more time to meet her...

Oh well...I've been listening to this song (and singing to it) endlessly on my computer. Downloaded the MP3 recently. I know, I know, this song is pretty old, but previously I have never liked the singer. Couldn't stand his debut single, Gotta Get Thru This. He's New Zealand-born Daniel Bedingfield. And I can't believe he's as old as me. Also born in 1980. He looks older though...

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New Zealand-born singer based in UK, Daniel Bedingfield.

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I just recently tried listened to it more intently and I find the song really beautiful, especially the lyrics and melody. Plus, I can relate to it, really feeling this song, especially at this point of time. Fine, I know a lot of my friends have been raving about this song and I'm rather late at recognizing the merits of this song...so sue me...

Dedicated to you know who...okay, I know, I know...hope none of you gets diabetes after this...

If You're Not The One by Daniel Bedingfield

If you’re not the one then why does my soul feel glad today? / If you’re not the one then why does my hand fit yours this way? / If you are not mine then why does your heart return my call? / If you are not mine would I have the strength to stand at all?

I never know what the future brings / But I know you are here with me now / We’ll make it through / And I hope you are the one I share my life with

I don’t want to run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand / If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am? / Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

If I don’t need you then why am I crying on my bed? / If I don’t need you then why does your name resound in my head? / If you’re not for me then why does this distance maim my life? / If you’re not for me then why do I dream of you as my wife?

I don’t know why you’re so far away / But I know that this much is true / We’ll make it through / And I hope you are the one I share my life with / And I wish that you could be the one I die with / And I pray in you’re the one I build my home with / I hope I love you all my life

I don’t want to run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand / If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am? / Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

‘Cause I miss you, body and soul so strong that it takes my breath away / And I breathe you into my heart and pray for the strength to stand today / ‘Cause I love you, whether it’s wrong or right / And though I can’t be with you tonight / You know my heart is by your side

I don’t want to run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand / If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am? / Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

posted at 12:45 a.m.

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